Dear Friend...my "just friend"

My friend,
since i knew you not long ago,
i'm very good impression on you,
you just very nice with me,
but at the same moment,
my heart have been broke by someone,
i'm afraid of being hurt the second time,
so i reject the feel that i have on you,
i refuse to like you,
In fact,there are a lot of impossible between you and me,
and i know what you want from me is just be a friend.
Since these few day,
my trial exam is near,
but i can't concentrate on my study and revision,
because i've always wanted you,
i can't control my mind to thinking on you...

Here i have to say that,
i were give up,
i hope you can find a perfect match with you,
i were treat u as a forever friend,
and i'ill try my best to not LOVE you anymore,
ya,no more... ...

There is a song "Dear Friend" by 顺子
but was cover by Dudu杜华瑾(the girl that i admire so)
the lyrics is stand for some point of view to you,
the melody is represent my emotional...

if someday you see this you will understand me but i believe that this won't be happen... ...

From 1 to 2, From 2 to 1.

Since these few month ,i felt like be more understand what is love.
Although i din't fall in love with anyone... ^^

i have a friend and i knew him 7 years ago.He is a simple guy until now just remain the same.Sound good thing,friendly,sunshine,active and a bit drollness but not too over...

i have a friend and i knew her 9 years ago but in between these 9 year i have break contact with her 5 year.Coincidentally i meet her again last year.She had a bit different compare with 6 year ago.She has become friendly,understanding,active and a little bit masculinity(cause she can be very close with a man,hahaha)

Surprisingly,they fall in love.
They had a very best friend in between them(not me).They hang out together with this friend and they meet each other.Gradually they are more closer and stealthily they were fall in love...

Ya,this is very normal and simple.Know each other,close with each other,then fall in love .
A very sweet first love.

i have a another friend and i knew him last year.He is a good guy.He is peaceful,friendly and a hardworking guy.
i have a another friend and i knew her last year too.She is a nice girl.She is sunshine,kind and she is good communicator and a good listener .

They fall in love too.
However they were not so lucky like the first couple.They had broke down recently.
First time they know each other because they are classmate.When i heard the boy wanna pursue the girl, i'm so surprising cause i never aware he like the girl.It was so unexpectedly.After that,the boy was success and the girl is agree with his pursue.But unluckily they broke it finally because of improper temperament.

i saw them from 1 to 2, and saw another one from 2 to 1.
i can perceive "love" can be pure like a paper and it also can be very complicated.
A pure sweet love can it really be forever?
i learn that "love" is not only you love him/her.
Inside,you need to be understanding your fere,you need to be tender,you need to always take care of him/her,u need to give him/her a enough freedom,you need to know what he/she really need,u need to
unsure he/she always happy when he/she be with you,you need to ... ... and you need to do a lot of thing for just to keeping yours relationship.

Love make one happy but it also bring us bother and trouble.
Love it is alway can't dope out and be master of .

i heard a song.
Is meaningful.I would like to share it .
from jason mraz colbie caillat
Hope i can send this "lucky" to my friend and may god bless them alway happy together.

"MUET——Malaysian University English Test" is over...

Pressure...this is my first time blogging in English...
Welcome for everyone to read but make sure u know my terrible english
hahahahahahahahahahahahaha


Bad dream was passed ...
Already 6 or 7 month...
i think my English got a lot of improvement...XD
Although i know i still have many grammar mistake...
My language is weak and my dictionary is lack...
i have not enough word in my "memory stick"...
i hate to learn about the past tense and present tense...some more perfect past tense and so on...
it make me so confuse...


I cant speak automatically...
the word,the verb i sound is not automatically...
i still need to think and make a sentence,then only i can speak...
i know that's not good ...


i can't listen to the native speaker...
that's difficult for me to understand what is the native speaker say...
i can't understand why they are so great...they can speak so well...
because they start speaking English when they are born to this world...
Just like me...i learn to speak Cantonese...when i'm still a child...


i regret...why my mum never send me to a English primary school...


I can't write an essay that zero grammar mistake...
red pen's underline...teacher's comment...my essay alway full with such things.
i really dislike to learn English...i give up for a long long time...
but now...the first day i'm enter form6...anything is change...
u should well in English...speak well...listen clear...write well...easily understand the verb,the word,the idiom,the slang...good spelling...
anythings in English ...that's form6 and university...
the f6 student is force to take MUET——Malaysian University English Test
u support to pass all the paper...
For me,a guy who's get 7D for English in SPM ...that's a bad bad new for me~~


Stress ! Pressure!
Everyday force myself to learn English...
though any way just want to improve my English...
Is it too late for me?...a f6 student can't understand the word"discriminant","allowance","endangerous"...
all of this word i start learning from last year...
i regret why i give up my English...
now,my basic is not good...this make me face the difficulties during the MUET class...
what teacher said i have to hear it twice only can get the point and clear...
when teacher want us stand in front of all fellow classmate and do presentation or introduce ourself...
"good~good~ggggood~morning teacherrrrr~~todaaayyyy~~~"
sound word by word...nervous...or the idiom said"i have a butterfly in my stomach"


Since these 6 month...i learn a lot...
i know more word...i can speak(at least better than before)
i learn idiom...i learn slang...and i fall in love with it...
i try to get more improvement for my language...
i need more help ...i need people to teach me more about English...
start from the very basic things...learn past tense and present tense...
It is okay for me...
Just want to make correction...


Actually...i'm so stress after write all of these...
sorry for my broken "Singlish"...and all the grammatical error...
If you can't understand don't ask...because i can't explain to you clearly~~
i apologize first~ XD


Last but not least, the Muet is over for a temporary ...
i will get my result in July...maybe it's a "flying colours"or may be it's colourless for me...
if i fail to get band3  i will have to enter the exam hall again~~
GOD BLESS ME PLEASE...




Writen by:
Wilson豆腐佬